There is a saying '相处好，同住难'. For me it is very very true.
She had spent almost half of her life and I had spent my whole life, 21 years precisely to communicate with one another in order to live in peace. However it wasn't helping at all. We never like each other. We are just like land mine. You are safe if you mind your own business but you better be careful once you try to meddle with others' business.
Unexpectedly our relationship suddenly became better since I plan to move into hostel last year. We started to talk and care for one another. This condition did not last long. I moved back few months ago as my class was not as hectic as before.
One morning she woke me in order for me to practise driving. I refused to wake as I was too tired from working the day before. I did raise my voice because I hate to do thing last minute. I didn't expect she teaches me as she hardly volunteer to teach me and she did not tell me beforehand.
When I woke, I apologised to her and ask for her forgiveness. She shouted at me and said that she wouldn't teach me anymore. I thought she might need some time to cool down but since that we never talk again.
She never like me since I was still a child. She always talked bad about me in front of everyone, including my siblings. Hence I hardly get any respect from my siblings even though I am the eldest. Can you imagine how I feel when your sister call you 'hai yan'?
There is a saying which I quite agree. It said that she felt my dad pour more attention and love into me compare to her. Imagine I am their first baby. Of course my dad will very sayang me. Anyway treat me bad or I should say not-so-good can't make my dad love you more k?
How I wish I have a better mum... I really jealous when my friends mention about their mum. They can chat about everything. Looking at myself. I feel like an ostrich in this house. I used to fight back. Nowadays I will only keep myself away because I don't want my dad to stuck in the middle.
At the end I can only spilt everything over him. He advised plenty of times to back off and take the first move. But I have my ego. I can't let go my pride as I did apologised.
28 December, 2008
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cheers up gal~ in d blog i feel ur mom is caring u also~ but her way 2 used on u is diff~ mayb sometimes u cannot understand~ u r d 1st baby~ yayaa~ ur mom n ur dad 1st beloved creation~
bside tat, u should thanksful coz u stay wif ur parent~ me? lolz~ not good lucky as u lor~ like me~ i dunno how long i din c my mom~ i jux remember tat day i c my mom is at church~ d christmas event there~ i jux said hi 2 my mom look like a good fren said hi~ i treat my mom look like a fren than my mom~ my dad? hoho~ i 4get when i c him alr~
appreciate d time wif ur parents~ no matter how ~ they are loving u coz u r their loving creation~
n happy 2009 2 u!!! all d best at new year!!!
Kelvin: haih... i told before about her right? d reality is far more kik sum ah. u c ur mum as fren. i c my mum like enemy le. sumore ur bro is getting more mature n obedient. better than mine lo. who like to be called 'hai yan' oh?
happy new year to u too... best wishes
every family has their own problems to face with. you may see others as good and happy, but they may see you as good too, on the other hand. you won't know what really is happening on another family. we tends to jealous one another as they have what you do not have. Love needs patience for sure. However, traditional families are not used to express themselves. you will have to show her that you care, and eventually you will see how she cares for you.. CHEERS~
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