Today is our 2nd year anniversary. I thought of going to UPM to dine with him. Sadly I just a blurr driver. I don't know how to go. huh...

End up being in college from 8am until 6pm. Experimenting on breads again. The result was not as good as the day before. The breads were over proof due to the high amount of yeast. The croissants were not flaky as the oven is not high enough and we were using only normal butter.Anyway the process was fun. ;P

Another round of meeting tomorrow. haih...another stab today. Our dearest assistant chef redo the hierarchy which I did weeks ago. And my place is under him... Can he be kind enough to sms me whether I did it anot? I am just for display or I am invisible? I wish i could say I am thin enough to be unnoticeable. haha... I am getting crazy soon...

Yup. 2 years of relationship. Not that long and not that short. Too much things happened in this 2 years. And things even happened before this 2 years. Thanks ney for being by my side, shower me with love and care. Thanks for being patience with me and my family. There is too much things I want to say to you. But I would like to keep it just for you and I. Luv you ney. muacks...

why assign it to me when someone else is doing it?????????????

I had been longing to post about my freedom, free from recipe findings, requisitions and assignments. Finally my fifth semester is end today. wahaha...Too bad to say my mood is totally ruined by today meeting.

Its been months since I knew the secretary had to do the timetable for Pm module. And Mr Oliver assigned it to me officially today.

I had a rough idea on how to allocate the 52 persons. But our dearest assistant chef does not seems to like it and insist on his. It is not a big deal if he doesn't like it. The thing matters is his attitude. He should at least show some respect to me since the task is assigned to me. He even showed no respect to the chairperson and other leaders.

Ah... I am pissed off

cheap cheap fish. come on buy some fish...

I was speechless when you mentioned that I only care for you and myself. I admit about my ignorance and lack of care to my family. But you sounds as if you do not know what happened.

Who am I to care? I am their daughter and the eldest sister.

Why should I care? Because we are a family.

How could I care?.......................

I am just like a tenant here with free room, free streamyx, free food and free laundry service. When I am needed, I am their sister. When they do not need me, I am miss nobody.

How long did she call my name? She used 'someone' to refer to me.

This is worse. I am just a 'hxx yan' and not a sis. huh...

I hardly bake or cook anything since last year. It had became an unhealed wound for me. They don't really like western stuff and dairy products especially butter. So I made them a orange sponge cake. Nobody ever bother to touch it until the day I dumped it. When I asked, they replied kindly "Nobody touch it. So I assume it is sucks". So now onwards I will do things for myself. Finish it myself or another meal for Mr. Garbage Bin.

It wasn't as if I never try to change the situation now. I really put effort to mend our relationship. End up it is still the same. I'm a simple girl. I just some love and care.

Perhaps I should change my blog domain and title.

Vivien, the fishmonger.

Because I sel-fish...

Everyday I will ask myself, will I be alive tomorrow?

I was so boring until I sat down to watch the movie that my bro was watching. I missed almost half of the movie. So nothing much to comment about it. But there was a phrase that I cant forget.

Everyday I will ask myself, will I be alive tomorrow?

Nothing special about that phrase right? But it made me think.
Every now and then I will plan for things that will arrive soon. It could simply your birthday, our anniversary, my industrial raining or perhaps my employment. I could hardly ask myself what will happen tomorrow.

We all knew life is fragile but how fragile it could be? How near we are to death? Haha...I sounds so depressed. What I am trying to say is just 'what is the purpose of planning if we don't even have a tomorrow'.