I wonder what happened to me this few days. Since gardemanger class I had been so emotionally unstable. I wasn't saying that I mind about what happened that day. But I am still feeling blue and grey.

I would like to apologised to Auntie Emily and Uncle Chan as I was a bit emo during f&b class. Thanks for bearing with me.

This few days I was freak out because of midterm and work. The weird thing is I wasn't physically tired but my mentally is very tired. I wish there is someone for me. Uncle has been very very busy. I understand that he is tired and even lack of sleep. Yet I still need him.

Called few friends to look for comfort. Sadly, the happy ones is too happy that I am not willing to spoilt their good moods while the unhappy ones, I am not willing to add their troubles.

I wish I could cry. At least I will feel better but there wasn't any trace of tears in my eyes. I just can say he influences my life a lot. How I wish he is here to cheer me now. I feel so suffering.

words for someone

As I always said, a man should have know how to make decision. A man that can made a decision may not be attractive while on the other hand, an indecisive man is definitely UNATTRACTIVE. I am saying this is not for the sake of telling you how to get a girlfriend. It is for you to improve your personality. Please think about it. You might not know when your friends will get frust with this attitude.

Okay...As I had promised my sifu, I am here to promote Yik Hoong's blog. It is a fantastic blog with direct messages and lots of pictures. I would recommend you guys to read it as he is an experienced blogger. Last but not least, thanks for everything. The Sunway Lagoon pic is awesome. You did a great job editting it. Not to forget is all the help and info you gave as I really appreciate it. Thanks.

Not long ago, we were still the innocent children. We grown up as time passed and our precious childhood had become our memories. Had you ever wonder how much you remember about your childhood? Why not take a few minutes from your hectic schedule and think about this question. Remind yourself about how you used to be. As for me, I have my very beautiful pieces of memories.

innocent vien with her beloved goddad

Sometimes I wish I have the time machine so that I can return to the past. Being a child is so happy and fun. The world in a child's eye is much more simple and easy. Sadly, the world that you and I see now is so complicated and messy. Everyday we had to struggle for everything; things that we need and things we think we need.

Try to think what our parents had gave us to make us happy. Perhaps a meal at KFC or Mcdonald with burger, nugget and fries? Birthday party with a chocolate cake? A few hours at park playing see-saw, swing or kite? Small giftes such as candies, chocolates when you score in your exams? A warm hug when you were woke from nightmare? (opps...this does not happened to me)

And now think of what had you gave to make yourself happy. A meal at fine dining restaurant such as Lafite or Chalet with the best cuisine and nice wine? A few hours shopping at your all time favourite boutiques? Gifts such as jewelries which cost you a fortune?

Being happy now is no longer easy. Especially when you have a lot of things you want. For timebeing I hope I can go for Beauty & The Beast Musical, Joey Yong concert and the most I am craving for is Leo Ku Live in Genting. But...money is my main concern.

In conclusion, to make myself happy I need to earn lots and lots of money. You may say that I am materialistic but I would like to say I am just being realistic.

what is blog meant for you?

Everyone is so into blog especially uncle chan, uncle justin and the new blogger, auntie emily. Every little thing happened around us will be link us to blog. So it makes me start to wonder what is the purpose I blog. I had spend sometimes reading other people's blog, whereby I used to read blogs from people I knew only. There was plenty of blogs you can easily reach online.

There are people writing about what happened in their life; some wrote about their very creative thinking; some share their knowledge; so what about me? At first, what drives me to create this blog is the heart break from a friend. But it is crazy to keep on writing about how sad I am as nobody is going to care about it. I wish my blog would had made an impact to those that read it. Anyway if there are people who bother to read it then it is good enough.

Recently a lot of stuff came across my mind especially our mother Earth. A lot of people is still blur about what had happened to the Earth. The global temperature is rising day by day and natural disaster happened here and there. It is all resulted from the uncivilised acts of our ancestors. If we are not doing anything now, can you imagine what will happen to our future generations?

I couldn't say that I did a lot in protecting the Earth but at least I tried to do it. Once I told my friend to finish his plate of food as you can see there are people die of hunger. He replied, "Do you think it makes any different if I finish it? This would not help those victims get better." But one will not do that if he knows how precious is the food. More and more people is trying to raise awareness of the public as campaign like famine 30 is held every year (I wish I could participate but my gastric do not allow me to do it). Food is not something just to fill our stomach. Try to understand and study about it. From the process it is cultivated/raised, pluck/slaughter...until it is cooked, all required lots of care and effort.

vien's kebab with superb kdu bbq sauce

By the way I am glad that our kebab was finished within seconds and there was no wastage (in despite of the lamb was a bit overcooked). On the other hand, I am so excited with our next gan cheong kitchen with yikhoong-vien recipe.

APPETIZERS

• Cold cucumber and yogurt soup
• Grilled asparagus with bacon

MAIN COURSE

• Fish and spinach lasagne
• Cereal-crusted chicken with tangy pineapple sauce serve with herbed rice and broccoli almondine

Tomorrow uncle will be returning to upm. Although I was mentally prepared for it but my heart still feel very hm seh dak. Worry that uncle will be very busy and yet I will be lonely... and lots of unnecessary worries.

To my suprise is that uncle asked ariestt to take care of me. I never thought that uncle will do that. A bit touch and yet it is so not uncle's style. Anyhow I will be independent and take good care of myself.

I haven't post anything for almost a week time. Is it nothing to blog or too much things to blog? Who noes... As normal there are sadness and happiness.

13th JUNE 2008, FRIDAY

It was a miserable day. I was wearing sunglasses in f&b class. Everyone asked about my eyes and pui yee's hand and we ended with the hilarious 'kai yik' story.

It is uncle's last day of working. Had lunch together and a movie at night. I was very sad about how I look but thanks for the comfort and support that uncle gave me. If not because of you, I might still be moody.

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14th JUNE 2008, SATURDAY

The day had came. It is my 2nd time going for Eason Chen's concert. Excited yet embrassing. Had been usher-ing for RM 398 seats with sunglasses from 7pm (3pm). It is weird and the worst is I'm on tv with the sunglasses. Haih.... Anyway it is a nice concert. Enjoyed.

15th JUNE 2008, SUNDAY

Today is fathers' day. We went for a grill and nasi lemak house in PJ as it was recommended by dad's friend. Anyhow it was disappointing as the food are only so-so. We treated dad but dad is the one who pay. wahaha... bad daughter

16th JUNE 2008, MONDAY

I wish I can control my feeling. Everyone had been talking about my eye. This say this, that say that... I am totally understand that they are actually concern and care about me but... it does not matter now.

17th JUNE 2008, TUESDAY

As Uncle Chan named it, the 'Kan Cheong Kitchen', I wasn't really kan cheong till the moment Mr Paul is going to judge our food. It was our first time prepare our menu and somehow based on the very limited ingredients. We made some wrong combination and arrangement here and there. But one will only grown with mistakes. I really learned a lot.

Went to a chinese medical center to check up my eye. Luckily it was only bruise and nothing harm my sight. I had a lesson. NEVER USE HARD-BOILED EGG WHEN YOU HAD BRUISE. Peace for me and people who care for me.

18th JUNE 2008, WEDNESDAY

I brought the cupcake I made yesterday based on the recipe Teo gave me. But I made a super duper silly mistake. Too embrassing to write it here as I shouldn't do this mistake as a chef student. But anyhow uncles and aunties finished it. So happy.

19th JUNE 2008, THURSDAY

A very precious piece of my memory. Done so much things today. Went back to old school to get our cert. Had a thinking to walk around the school and recall all our precious memory but it is impossible. Everyone will be looking as if alien had attacked Cochrane. Haha... Went back to an old hangout place, the hakka yong tau fu so-called-shop. The food not as nice as it used to be.

This is the last date before uncle's holiday end. Rong's uncle is coming back and yet my uncle is going off. Someone is happy and someone is unhappy. Life is just like a see-saw.

Life must go on. Pack the past and prepare for what is going to come. Gambade...

a trip to Sunway Lagoon

Everything started with our meeting at Sunway Lagoon entrance with really excited and kan cheong feeling. Having a good exercise for my heart as we had quite a number of rides on Tomahawk and Pirate’s Revenge, lets not forget about Lost City of Gold. Thanks auntie emily for holding my hand in the air. Please don't do it again. My heart had too much already. Congo Challenge also one of my liking as I went down the last and reached there first. By the way, there is nothing to do with weight and inersia. The very last game I was playing caused me a big bump on my right eye. Someone said that I look like HAP (half a panda). I think it is a compliment, which means my black eye ring actually unnoticeable. wahaha...
As my previous trip to Sunway lagoon I did not have a chance to walk on the world's longest Pedestrian Suspension Bridge, and it happened again. Anyway I am not sure that is it possible for me to complete this 428m journey.

ACKNOWLEDGEMENT:

I would like to express my gratitude to the following individuals for their contribution and they deserve their proper due:

Uncle Isaac & Auntie Thong for the transportation

Uncle Teo & Uncle Justin for being our cameraman-of-the-day

Auntie Emily for being my part-time nurse

Auntie Melanie for the sunglasses

Uncle Yik Hoong for helping in organising & the voucher

Uncle Johnson for the tissue

Not to be forgotten is the joy and fun that everyone bring throughout whole trip as it is the most wonderful thing.

2007_6_13 i was in redang with the one i love. 2008_6_12 i will be going to sunway lagoon. But my beloved will not be joining. Excited but there is imperfection as I wish you are there as well. For this one year plus (even in f6) you had given me a lot of memories. I could not say that there are only happy ones as there are also unhappy too. But I am glad that I had both. Unhappy ones will make me crave for more happy ones and it will become more precious. One more week to go and you will be engaged with uni stuff again. I cant make time stop but I will create memory as time goes. Glad to have you in my life.

The Road Not Taken

As I was thinking what to blog today, I came across with something I used to learn sometimes ago. A poem from Robert Frost entitled 'The Road Not Taken'. I had been studying it as part of our literature but didn't notice that it actually play a role in our life. Often I had doubt whether I made a wrong choice in choosing culinary art as my profession. Now I am going to continue my journey with more confident. And lets not forget to thanks those who had help and support me all the way, especially unclechow.

THE ROAD NOT TAKEN

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads onto way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence;

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-

I took the ones less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

Robert Frost [1916]

I do not understand what the purpose we must take this personal development plan thingy. A stupiak subject that required us to write lots and lots of essays and refelctive summaries. Please la. Do you think one will improve themselves by writing craps? If it works, lets get the terrorists and criminals to write it. Why us?

the fragile princess

Planned to sleep but there was something buzzing in my mind. Wanted to get rid of it is the main reason I'm here. It is a story of a couple (I didn't say lovers). Just a pair of friends, since primary school. Had been same in the class since secondary till form 6. One had been giving and one had been receiving. As times gone, giving and receiving had became a habit or one had been taking one as granted. Giving had became ones habit as she appreciated this friendship a lot, more than u can imagine. There is someone who keep on telling me to let it go. I tried and tried. I wish I can do it. At least I can have some dignity for myself. But years of friendship, how can I let it go easily? As you said she is not my bf. But it is indeed 15 years. We had been through a lot of things together. There were tears and laughters. I wonder when my heart stop will bleeding...

the journal of a princess

Ahem...What should i say? This is my first time blogging? Is it? Maybe. Well thanks to uncle yik hoong for introducing me this place. And the most important to Justin. It was coincidence that I saw my comment in his blog and made up my mind to create my own blog. This will be a place for this princess to speak what plays in her mind, whereby there is something she might be hiding all by herself all this while. Hope someone will appreciate this. Anyway it is incredible that you manage to found this blog. Believe in faith?